I don't remember recording this. Or what prompted me to record this. I can only place it with a line I say, about the Tsunami in Japan which was around 2005. I believe. Which would probably make this right after I was released from my first stay in St. Ann's. Trinidad and Tobago's main Psychiatric hospital.

I was 18 years old. Listening to this right now as a 30 year old brings some chills to me. So many years after, I only now find my self working up the courage, to even face the pain ever present in my soul.

I wish I found a way to release it long ago. To deal with it. To find myself. To find to strength to face my fears. I was searching then and now still.

I can only say I've kept trying and didn't fall victim to my fatalistic thoughts. And I keep working everyday, in any way to accept myself and grow as a person despite all the troubles and shortcomings I have. I no longer flinch in the face adversity.

I think it is happening.
I will always keep fighting and hoping for a better tomorrow, A happy self, a peaceful content life. A sturdy and strong memory palace.

Brick by brick they say.
Brick by brick I lay.